Thursday, November 27, 2008

Life

Many say Im spolit other say I am a bitch , idiot or whatever.
Is up to you to think.
Yes I may be spolit~ One way or the other.
Firstly I live in a rich family.. Yea people tell me they want to be me.
Go ahead.. If you want I can give it to you. But there is no such thing in this world.
[Unless is like RPG =D WOOT]

Now I just feel that this is my blog and my side of the story.
If you don't believe... I don't blame you =) if you think is plain stupidity... I have no other comments ^^
When I came into this world. In 10 dec 1990.
They said that I was a quick birth.
In other words I came out very quickly then any of my siblings.
Wow ok i didn't know that.
When I was born my family just move in to their new house which is jala para kisis.
[ or whatever is spell]
From then on my life started from there.
I only can remember fragments of it ^^
Well Im glad i have these memory and some of course not glad because is inside me.

So when I was small around 4 years old onwards to around 7..
My life was how do i say..
well not sure what is the word but let me tell me my daily life =)
I spend almost everyday hook to the T.V
Why? Nothing else to entertain me.. Usually not many people are at home.
And I still remember is usually only the maid or my sister..
or else just the maid.
But I was happy that I met someone near my house.
Her name was Trishala.
She brighten up my day..
We play together and everything..
but yea of course is not like everyday XD
She was my first best friend ^^ and still is [ wondering how she is doing for her A lvl o-o]
So moving on..
I was hook to those cooking sets..
And for my sister , Barbie dolls.
I usually play with trishala because we love to imagine.
But my sister didn't really like to play with us so some time we just play barbie doll with her..
and =-= I don't really like it.. why? because I end up cleaning everything with trishala or sometime when she is not over.. alone..
well I cannot really say anything so i just clean up because my mom will scold..
but sometime my sister will just run away to some other place like the park and I left alone with the whole room in the mess...
But is ok :D I learn how to clean the room in a nick of time.
[ wondering why my room is messy now .-.]

When I first go primary school
The name was st hilders primary..
I remember I was so scared.. but yet happy..
I was going to go into a new world..
I met new people and others..
and I turn into a tom boy XD
I love sports! I love games! I love to run.. and I am hyper.
I use to run with the girls and boys playing catching, ball games , Hopsotch and others.
and I was the fastest girl in class in primary 1 - 2
whY? hhaha because my partner is the fastest guy.
I always want to match up with him because I want to show that girl is better.
Thus I got a small crush... you can say puppylove HAHA
because need to hol hand and seat together and everything..
I hated him because he always bully me..
like when the whole class need to hold hands to go to another area.. He always squeezze it!
holy shit >< is painful.. so you always will see me and him fighting in a quiet way by stepping each other or something :D
i forgot who won o-o
Primary 3.. we were parted to a different class XDD
Haihz primary 3 was also the year that i got pinch alot ><
My sister always pinch me.. I don't know why..
Not really much everyday.. but twice a week or so..
she may not recall but I did..
because I remember the pain.
then I had a comment from my mother and sister..
I was too tom boy.. and they said that I can't I need to be a girl
I been hearing the word "change" almost more then 50 times
and to make them happy I did..
I became a childish girly girl =-=
yea I act cute.. try to be cute.. try to be sweet and everything..
started to wear skirts.. dresses.. and more..
Stopped running and play more..
I started going to libary..
That guy.. my partner.. [ name jermey XD] he told me that I am different already and didn't know me.
And after I switch school when i was primary 4..
I never saw him again...
the words was I was change into someone that is not who I use to be..
Well What can I do. o-o I change to a all GIRLS school.
Therefor here is my life in CHIJ primary katong.

Well in that years.. crazy things happen to me..
lol when I was in primary 2 daphne told me the word Fuck XDD
I can still remember it clearly..
I was sitting on top of the table next to the iron table.
and she told me.. this is a bad word.. shhh don't tell mummy or anyone
and I just nod and say orh.
" you know Duck?" "yaa?" "Change the first letter for F" "Fuck?!?"
Then she run o-o but of course I didn't use it then la..
I use it after I went secondary school ! LOL

Then other one is my brother.
He was sick and I think he had some flu..
so I went to him and ask why was he sick?
he told me.. " Oh I got bird flu from seeing a blue bird." " beware of the blue birds"
.-. From then I didn't dare to see blue birds and thought i will get bird flu until i war primary 5 LOL

Comments i heard? i am too skinny I need to be fatter o-o
My weight was like 18kg.. and height was 140 something or 130 forgot XD
Daphne and mom always say that i need to eat more..
but i think because i run alot..
they always say I was bones or something...

And then in the mid of that age I wanted to run away from home once.
Why? I just don't like it doing what every my sister or brother say..
Is like.. Denise Clean your room [ i share my room with my sister]
so I clean her side too.
Denise clean up all the toys.. [ My toys are usually in a box.. and her barbie is everywhere]
or else sometime no choice have to play barbie T-T and i keep everything.
Denise listen to your siblings.. [ always ALWAYS]
and things like I am not allow to help in the household chorse i cannot clean others..
only the toys..
I always wanted to mop or valcume..
or even wash the dishes..
HEY playing those cooking set just don't give you the real feeling!
I got scolded from my mom because i did housework
well so i took like o-o 50 bucks from my mom and i thought it was alot already [ lol young ma]
then i wanted to leave but I was stupid to tell my mom and siblings [ who were in the same room]
then they laugh at me saying that I have no where to go and I am useless outside..
[guess so.. ]


somethings that back fire in my life and others?
.-.daphne teach me burping.. I follow.. end up.. now.. she say and everyone else say is gross.. =.=

Paino.. I didn't wanted to learn that.. My sister does..
End up I have paino lesson together with my sister..
AND I WAS NOT INTRESTED IN IT AT ALL ..
no choice.. but after 4 - 5 months i quitted.. so did my sis..
not sure why.

my brother intro me to computer games! Which was those animal car racing..
hahaa damnit! It was so fun!! I forgot what it was called..!!!
i want to play again =\\

My family bought as a PS1.. we playedthe jewel game and other non stop untill one day denka friend came over..
and his friend wanted the ps1..
denka gave it .-.
[ or else something else happen and I didn't know.]

my life didnt really have my parents in it everyday..
only weekends and others..
because they work..
I usually play with other people and thus i become socialize
always going to the park and meet other people.

Me and my sister was saving moolah for something.. [ forgot]
but then one day my brother needed money..
so he took our piggy bank D8
well yea.. is GONE!

>3 I love my powder milk!
why? SWEET!! XDD i can even eat it without water..
just the powder~
hahaha Love it soo much XDD
I also like to bite my milk bottle LOL
and after powder milk.. i switch to milo..
because my dad love milo too.

started to have kuimon when trishala mother became a teacher..
the worksheet was easy.. but is mental bah..
daphne was lazy sometime.. o-o and I did for her..
well.. nvm.. is easy XDD

I was a soft toy freak XD
I just like to cuddle with alot of things beside me..
[ maybe thats why i love cludding beside claude LOL and my dogs]

everytime i get scolding.. >-> because I did something wrong
and get canning.. I always see my siblings smiling at me..
I don't know why.. [ that time..]
I don't get it...
I just go with the flow.. and cry it all out ><
I remember one of the worst..
is when they lock me and my dad in the toilet..
I thought I was in hell...
well yea.. I didn't talk for a week.. and the scar was there for around a week or 2..
but everyone beside me was just making their life as normal..
I feel alone.. [ hugs seal :D]
wonder what i did again =\\

haihz Use to get alot of scolding and beating just because I made my sister cry..
why? because she cannot get what she want..
haihz Use to it... [ even now]
I started to learn that to me crying infront of my parents..
is pointless for me..
and only for her..
I stop at around secondary school 1 or 2 i think.. forgotten..

i started to hate chinese when I was primary 3 :D
and started to fail =DD
LOL i should have been more motiveated like claude =\


well this is what i know for now.. usually memorys will come back and forth XD

Next post bah :D

AFA

Went to afa.. Ok next time I talk about it. First now pictures =D
I cosplay Ragnarok High priest!
Wow I am impress by haru tailor.
My first costume from her was really a turn down.
so this costume really give me back all those words about her tailor being bad.
They even made a red tail ribbon for me and i was shock!
I thought only the costume.
Well So yes~ The wand is not mine is rina =D thanks rina for lending me
I did it with reinhart kor :D and he look good too but his is from ely XD

Going to make misytic rose for ROY and Another wand!! Trying out XD
man!! The only bad part of this costume is the flashing!
I need to walk very carefully ><
and the garter make it even more sexy D8 lol but claude like >3 hahaha
But yea... didnt know that priest in ro wear like that hahah wonder how they fight XDDD
Imagine suddenly someone run pass or something then wind blow
in the middle of the battle field she got flash LOL
Maybe good way in pvp HAHA XDDd



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Monday, November 24, 2008

I am sorry dearie

Sorry dearie.. ahh I love you so much ><>
I really got to thank chiru for showing me that blog...
that post really makes me remember how much I love you


Chiru show me this blog.
Is a guy from NP .-.

http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com/

I know i've written about this before, but i'm reposting this entry specially for any (girl) going through a relationship confusion at the moment. You've got to be strong and you need to take care of your own heart..


If a guy wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesnt want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.. sometimes, you've got to let your intuition save you from heartache. And please dont try to change yourself for a relationship that not meant to be..

Im not being mean.. but I personally believe that you should never live your life for a guy before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the guy was not treating you the way you deserve to be treated, dont kid yourself by continuing to be friends..

A friend wouldnt and shouldnt mistreat a friend.

If you feel like something's not right or that he might possibly be cheating on you, then he probably is. Dont be so gullible as to hold on thinking "it will get better". You'll only be mad at yourself a year later for holding on to nothing and just getting hurt all these while..

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Guys ALWAYS stand up for our own so you can never fully trust any one of his friends. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you, and if something bothers you.. for goodness sake, speak up!

Never let a guy know everything though. If he's a bastard, he'll use it against you later. You cannot change a guy's behavior. You have to understand that to us guys, it really is an ego thing and thats what makes us jerks most of the time. Change comes from within.

Girls, dont ever make him feel more important than you are. You shouldnt feel belittled even if he is smarter, wealthier, more popular. And please have some personal pride, seriously.. dont allow him to put a leash on you (neither should you be so possessive). Your guy is still a guy after all, nothing more and nothing less. A guy will treat you the way you allow him to.. never let him define who you are.

If everything eventually ends.. you need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage.. it makes you look like a desperate slut. Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of girls stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship, and make sure you really ARE over it before you start dating again..

And when the next special someone comes along, be sure you never look at him to complete you. A relationship consists of two whole individuals, so look for someone complimentary.. not supplementary.

You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a guy mistreats you, that brainless idiot simply doesnt know what he's missing out on. If he was attracted to you in the first place, know that he's not the only one.. just dont be a bitch and go around flirting if you're already attached..

If you find a guy, or if you're already with a guy.. who brings out the best in you, who brings joy into your life, who stands by you through everything and makes you feel special and loved.. then I guess you'll be/are one happy girl.

But when and if you ever start to question yourself about the direction of the relationship when nothing else is wrong, just remember the very first day you fell in love with him. Hold that memory, and fall in love with that special guy of yours again and again..
___
His post...


Ahh dearie.. I really love you so much ><>
Sometime I just feel someone is going to take you away or something T-T
I lost you once I don't ever one again.. due to my stupidity and jumping into conclusion >-<
I really need to stop myself for doing that..
I need you.. so much for whatever I have gone thru and done.

To other girls~ Read it... and remember in your heart.. what this guy say... is true.. o-o



Thursday, November 20, 2008

Interview

Went for another interview at Biztrading.
Kinda like their company more than BizMax..
Well the job is more on the promotion and event side.

Well they need people so if you want to try you can ^^
I just hope that I got in.. because I feel that I don't like my singtel job..
wonder if i can quit =-=
Hope so..
is like sucks.. badly..
see computer until you are blind..

I really still prefer my job at haru ^^
Is fun there~ So pink XD so cute!
I see the items there also make me temp LIKE "CURRY PUFF"
ok.. is a dumpling doll.. but at first I thought is a curry puff because of the top part..
Thanks Hotart!! for buying me that!! I really was eyeing it for a long time LOL
was praying that no one else bought it..
I am also eyeing on the milk :P LOL is like cute lor x-x
but I cannot spend already...
Ok not to spend XD work first!

Lets see the job~
Whoever want to try ^^ go ahead
I ask how many they need. they say almost 200.. so you will never know!


http://jobscentral.com.sg/viewSimple...273&jid=147800


30 Brand Ambassadors needed. $8-$15/hr. Islandwide.
Prefered age 18 and above.



Salary: $8-$15/hr

Hi all Hunks & Babes,

We Specialise in Events And Marketing for FMCG, Lifestyle, Beauty and Mobile Phone Brands.
As such, Brand Ambassadors/Representatives are often required to further introduce the brands at Events, Roadshows or Seminars etc.

We Are looking for 30 Brand Ambassadors.
Height requirement for Babes would be 165cm and above.
Height requirement for Hunks would be 170cm and above.
Pay range would be $8-$15 per hour.
3 working days per week with minimum 4 working hours per day.
Flexible schedule upon shortlisted

Preferably Singaporean and Singapore PR.
Prefered age would be 18 and above.
We welcome both Gender.

Keen candidates, kindly send the following:

-Position You Are Keen In
-Name
-Age
-Gender
-Nationality
-Mobile contact number
-Residential Area
-Job Experiences (State Job Designations/Positions Will Do)

To:
Email: ivan@biztradinggroup.com
Sms: (65) 9295 9253

We will get back to you on assignment availability.

Thank You.



Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Working~

Now I have to wake up 7am everyday to get ready for work...
Leaving soon.. to singtel x-x
Yesterday was my first day there and First day is boring~
Because I cannot do anything and I'm just learning from the staff who I'm going to take over.
So yup is boring~ Just seeing time flies... keep on thinking how much money I'm getting without doing anything >->
Well they say today they are going to let me try!! Yay So at LEAST I am going to do something.
Ok this job can slack abit.. well min [ the name of the girl] told me so too.
Sadly... I cannot go to internet or MSN D8
They block it!! Damn singtel!!
LOL well never mind bah. Find something else to do.
8.5hr , same as Haru but have 1hr break
Which their canteen is like DAMN crowded!
Because is cheap other people from other office come here too.. wtf?

6 months here..
1k per month..
ah not a bad thing bah..
Got to get use to it..
and I need moolah for my like cosplay..

YAY! I am happy because my Ranka lee cosplay is coming soon!
When I went home yesterday I did my Chiu wand..
Partly give up on my Ro wand that I want to do , so for eoy I think I am doing another one.
Using Rina wand for afa XD [ Thanks Rina ^^]

Man I really cannot wait for my Highpriest..
WHERE ISIT !! D8 damn It should be here tml...
Well GTG now .. or else I will be late for work!

Love you dearie >3

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Pay

Woot .-. I am like $153 richer LOL
but yea Is going to my cosplay funds..
and food~
FOOD !! >->
somehow didn't eat much today~
Only my fav Butter and sugar bread XD

Well Today was a bit hyper in Haru!
Stella came to visit me!! ^^ since she work near
Miss her XDD going to do MF and Lineage with her~ WOOT

well!! Cosplay is my hobby I love it...
but need to save for other clothes too T-T
Sometime don't you all wish that money just drop from the sky...
I do D8

Work

Working everyday now~
Well no more free time for me..
maybe only awhile..

Happy that I got the job at singtel!
So now everyday I need to wake up so early to go to work
since it starts at 8.30am
well nvm! Better to be at home anyway =)
and I am earning my own allowance ^^ I ish happy
I'm not going to depend so much on my parents anymore

If you want to meet me for dinner just call me ^.-
Or else just drop over at Haru during weekends~ I am working there

Now I just hope that everything goes well for my working life for this 8 months.

Sleeping time~
Sleeping early everyday already

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Daiso

Went out with claude today to go daiso!!
Learn so much from Ice princess ^^
Thanks so much~
Bought the peach fragrance
and also the magic sponge XD
not forgetting clay for my props~
And also some food for myself >3
found a heart shape that look perfect for chiu wand.
and also claude bought for me a small bag to keep my thing..
since my wallet and handphone always get lost in my bag..
sadly~

Well mc is losing is touch on burgers..
I think i agree with claude..
Carls Jr is much more better.
their burgers are higher quality..
even their bun is better .-.
Today i ate mega mc spicy..
and is more messy then carls jr..
Their standard is dropping...
I prefer carls jr now.. even thou is more expensive..
like what dearie said...
FREE FLOW OF DRINKS!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Blanket

D8 my blanket.. that hello kitty one..
sad is no more with me.. since i gave it to claude.
so that he will remember me every night >3
well bought a smaller one at taka =)
thanks claudy for buying it for me ^^ but lol i paid half too
CINNAMOROLL IS SOOO CUTE!
love it so much!
=) thanks for cheering me up ^^

Thursday, November 6, 2008

thanks

Thanks.. I really glad that i had you guys in my life..
I wonder if i don't what will happen to me..
I think i will just become insane or broken down.

and i thank lord for giving me Claude..
Or else I won't be here now..
I love you...

thanks Reinhart for asking me to meet you and your friends..
XD and thanks for the waffle.. and the comfort ^^

To lolipop thanks for the muffin !! Hugs* love ya

broken - haha Finally meet you again ^^ your randomness is always funny

horse , Tohru , lockie and all the rest i met XDD
happiest bunch ever.. =P

Well that brighten up today..
oh yes~
I would want to thank nana chan ^^
For always there for me =) Love you mother


Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I want to vanshi and dissappear from this world..
there is no meaning..
unless someone can tell me what is the meaning of my life in this world..

Sunday, November 2, 2008

ranting

since i cannot type my rants here.. If you want to view my rants pm me.. I got another blog for it.
since I don't want CERTAIN people to see it

going to rant again..
well 2 days didn't post..
Went to work yesterday ><
found myself being very clumsy X-X
I am such an airhead :(
Well I am a noob in this.. need to practice and learn.
Sorry again Ice princess >-<

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUSTY!!!!
So forgot your birthday was today again!!
Hope you can alot of slaves =X guy slaves for yourself.. in ragnarok online
[ damn that sounds wrong...]

I need to find another job too T-T haihz..
Long story in my life..
need a weekday job..
but with the crisis going on.. many jobs are cut off.
how sad..
well, Time to look for one